Life iN nAtIoNaL SeRvIcE

"It was a lonely noon
There i was walking… looking…
It was there, it was then
That i Finally found you."

It was by chance or fate we met
In a life of uncertainty,
Things lie before our path
and many stories told before our time
But it is this story
of us that i want to have told.

Baby take out your pen,
Be prepared for the ride of ur life.
Take a seat beside me,
and we will sit here till the morning light.
You and I holding hands,
writing a story that envy all.

Take my breath, own my soul,
for it is you i yearn i dream.
Make me yours,
and that i’ll be.
My heart is lost but it is here,
That i finally found you.

A fairytale end is all i dream,
Harshness is reality for me.
You and I here today,
planning it all.
whatever ending it must be,
I am here for good to stay.

Sit with me b’neath this pale moonlite,
Laying close holding u tight,
Gazing into ur velvet eyes
I see in u,
a complete me,
the perfect man i am made to be.

Take my breath, own my soul tonight,
for it is you i yearn i dream.
Make me yours,
and that i’ll be.
My heart is lost but it is here,
That i finally found you.

You are the missing piece,
The one i’ve been searching.
Do you know it so?
You are the only one,
Who can pick up this pen
and continue this everlasting story.

Drown me in ur kiss,
Never let me go.
U seem so far so far away,
You are missed o’ so dear.
Looking frantically,
it is there that i finally found you.

Take my breath, own my soul tonight,
for it is you i yearn i dream.
Make me yours and i am,
Keep me and i’ll stay.
My heart is lost but it is there,
That i finally found you.

I have always felt u so close,
On this lonely night i sat alone,
Here writing our story.
Wind is strong night is cold
Oh baby where are the smiles,
that once used to melt me so completely.

We sail in this troubled waters,
Against the tides against all odds.
Oh i need you so,
to stay here with me .
I can never finish this story,
The story of us two alone.

Lose your heart,
Froget the pains.
Forget the glories forget all worries,
Would your heart sail back to me,
Would you pick up this pen
and start writing once again.

Take my breath, own my soul tonight,
for it is you i yearn i dream.
It was then i lost you,
but i never want to be ever again.
My heart is lost but it is here,
That i finally found you.

You can dance
Every dance with the girl who gives you the eye
Let her hold you tight
You can smile
Every smile for the girl who’d like to treat you right
‘Neath the pale moonlight
But don’t forget who’s takin’ you home
And in who’s arms you’re gonna be
Oh, darlin’ save the last dance for me
Oh I know
That the music’s fine like sparklin’ wine
Go and have your fun
Dance and sing
But while we’re apart, don’t give your heart to anyone
And don’t forget who’s takin’ you home
And in who’s arms you’re gonna be
Oh, darlin’, save the last dance for me
You can dance
Go and carry on till the night is gone
And it’s time to go
If she asks
If you’re all alone, can she take you home
You must tell her no

And don’t forget who’s takin’ you home
And in who’s arms you’re gonna be
Oh, darlin’, save the last dance for me
And don’t forget who’s takin’ you home
And in who’s arms you’re gonna be
Oh, darlin’, save the last dance for me

Over and over I look in your eyes
You are all I desire
You have captured me
I want to hold you I want to be close to you
I never want to let go
I wish that this night would never end
I need to know
Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

Over and over I`ve dreamed of this night
Now you`re here by my side
You are next to me
I want to hold you and touch you and taste you
And make you want no one but me
I wish that this kiss could never end
Oh baby please

Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

I don`t want any night to go by
Without you by my side
I just want all my days
Spent being next to you
Lived for just loving you
And baby, oh by the way

Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

Drop a bomb into the people, drop an A-Bomb in the Square.
Do it on a sunday morning while the people are at rest.
Throw some candy in the courtyard, while the children gather round.
Go and cock ur MG Rifle, mow those little suckers down.
Take an aim into the schoolhouse, while the teacher rings the bell.
Fire  missiles in the schoolhouse send those bastards down to hell!
Push the grandma off the wheelchair, Punch the granda in the face.
Kick the pregnant in the stomach, let their sorrows make my day!
*chuckle chuckle*

Bila Bila Siepa Gaya (cheers)x2

Once a papa met a mama under a mango tree,
Vander mama said to papa why u marry me?
Vander papa said to mama see u only
Vander mama said to papa siep ge gar go li

Surangaleh… surangalehgamali-likavah! Hey!

haha… yay! nee soon camp oh man slackers quater. Oh boy got posted to nee soon camp le and best still its damn slack dudes. Alrite maybe life is starting to get betta. Nice ppl ard me, a great bunk mate haha… oh and did i say we always go out on this night walk thingie to spot babes haha happening rite. Jeez dun remember when was the last time i actually did such things lol. Anyway it was great fun larz. Especially mixing with all the wonderful doctors. Surprisingly the doctors are as coarse as us larz… vulgarities, dirty jokes, u name it they got it. Probably its juz because of family and image restrait that’s why they act serious outside but serving their reservist i guess all hell breaks loose huh haha. Hai kinda miss those frens outside, miss my poly days when we used to go out enjoy and stuff. Now everybody has camp duties and stuff we are practically rushing for time all the while. Cant wait to get my pink IC back but then again will miss army life when that happens. It is during this time when i get to know these wonderful bunch of frens ard me. Be it wierd ones, clever ones, yeah they are all great ppl. Tml should be going to eat lunch with my buds hopefully we willl get a great time out. Met yingjie today had desert haha… that was actually the place i was haunting like crazy its great to have her to bring me there larz at least i got to try wot i wanted. Saw her parents and was taken by surprise she was like greating two elder and i was kinda puzzled onlie then she suddenly told me those were her parents… and i went, your parents! in my head hahaha… but okie larz think its like she has this 24/7 schedule which nv fails to pack itself up lol. Anyway think shall end here man hopefully my sispec buds are doing well out there and wish them all the best!

I can’t get you out of my mind.
I keep thinking about how much
I enjoy talking to you,
how great you look when you smile,
and how much I like your laugh.
I daydream about you
off and on all day,
replaying pieces of our conversation…
laughing again about
funny things you said or did.
I’ve memorized your face
and the way you look at me…
it melts my heart
everytime i think about it.
And i catch myself smiling
when i imagine what will
happen the next time
we’re together.
You mus be something really special,
because I can’t remember
the last time
I felt so strongly
about someone.
Even though neither of us
knows what the future holds,
I know one thing for sure–
you’re one of the best things
that’s happened to me
in a long time.

As we grow up, we learn that even the
one
person
that
wasn’t supposed to ever let you down
probably
will.
You will have your heart broken probably
more
than
once and it’s harder every time. You’ll
break hearts
too, so remember how it felt when yours
was
broken.
You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll
blame a
new
love for things an old one did. You’ll cry
because
time
is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually
lose
someone
you love. So take too many pictures,
laugh too
much,
and love like you’ve never been hurt
because
every
sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute
of
happiness you’ll never get back.

boy does it stink these days… juz book in on saunday then book out yesterday and hafta book in tonite. Darn and to make it worse i gotto get back in camp by 8? tt’s pretty early for a holiday today is hari raya haji lor at least spare a tot for the muslims. Aniwae it keep raining so it realli dampens my mood everyday. Just Last week alone we were drenched for quite a number of days… worst still we had to take shelter in the jungle while the commanders went to hide in the shelter… what on earth is this. Makes no darnest sense… Hello? where’s our welfare and where the 7th core value? CARE FOR SOLDIERS! thinking of how we are treated realli makes me wonder is it worth staying in SISPEC… but well its alrite larz suffer a lil next time will be immune haha. Everytime i book out feel like going out but suay suay it rains. When on earth can the rain stop and leave us alone… its like wth… imagine gg into jungles for outfield almost every stupid shit day having to prone in the puddle of mud… ur boots drenched and u end up stinking. Imagine when u go down with ur hands and body u hear the "SPLAT AND SQUISH" omg can u imagine how disgusting it is and to think that some ppl urine and shit around the vacinity. Damn… now having so many pimples dun even get to wash my face everyday face full of dirt man oh man when will this stop haha. Maybe will finish BSLC then will decide where i shld go from there lol. Sometimes reallli think NS is a waste of time, should cut down to 1 and 1/2 yrs instead, it would be more realistic this way. Serious… i mean u learn abt stupid tactics how to go into battle and war but to hell with it, u wont even need to use those things in the future.

Anyway the onlie thing that brighten up my days in camp probably was tt i got a msg from her haha. Yeah at least something to be happi abt i guess… Other than that it was all shitty. We slept ard 11-12 and got to wake up ard 4.30-5. i seriously think i lack slp, even now my biological clock seemed to have change into a 5hr slping mode. LOL  *panda eyes* haha. Probably needa leave my place at 6 to get to camp in time… arhz! it sux!

finally yst got to book out in the afternoon… after waiting and waiting finally… quite a tough week to get thro, rushing here and there without much admin time for myself, probably the only actual admin time i have left was during "lights out". I seriously dun understand if things are so cramp might as well take out some things from the syllybus. but they lan lan have to keep with what SAF give them so there is no shit i can do too. Well aniwae if u realize my english suddenly went off track recently erm no worries yarh this is SAF english haha = no standard lol. in order to blend in no choice, vulgarities and erm SAF endorsed english have to  be used. Probably that only happens in SISPEC where the warrant officers are all "hokkien soldiers" soldiers will lil studying experience. But dun look down on that kiez they are well versed military wise.

I learn a lot within these few months serving in SAF. REalli a lot, learnt so much about life. Knowing that things should not be taken for granted and that you have to fight for whatever you think that is right. Probably i learned to be a more responsible person and think before i do anything. Especially in command sch where they emphasize a lot on leadership qualities, they come down veri hard on us for lack of disciplaine on our moral, ethical values. So yeap i can say NS do change people. Just that this will be a very turbulent, fun and great experience. Actually to me i always chao geng one larz… so i siam wotever there is. Take status so that i dun sweat myself out too much and stuff but slowly my mentality change. For now probably i have decided to chiong with everyone i mean seriously its not rite for me to see others chiong, suffer and sweat and i sit there and chit chat all the way. Decided to give it all my best from now on though seriously i will still make it thro if i onlie gave 50-60% but personally i think in this pt of time if i ever wanna make my NS life a fruitful one learning as much as i can i should start  putting in maximum effort.

Probably now my aim is to pass out as a 3sgt hopefully post back into tekong so that i could pass on my experience during my recruit and sispec days to all the recruits under me. tell them the stories that i have been thro… share the shit and joy i went thro with my buddies from raven both in sispec and bmtc. share my experience in life so that i could change them into beta men and not some silly jerk like me who i think realli made a fool outta myself in my first 20 yrs of life. Yes… life can be realli unfair at times but when if u can touch others and make sure they dun follow ur footsteps that is the best thing u can do to contribute to society. Make those ppl out there into betta men so that they can be more responsible towards their famlies and loved ones. 

man oh man finally got thro the first week of SISPEC… SUFFER IN SILENCE PLUS EXTRA CONFINEMENT hahaha but the warrant officers always makes it sound so nice… suffer in silence please endure and continue. Jeez wot a whole load of bullcrap. Anyway yeah first week wasn’t that bad afterall but that includes the fact that the sgts were given strict orders not to touch us for the first week so *ahem* there’s more to come with it. I can sense the torture both mentally and physically for the weeks to come. I always ask myself the same question over and over again… why did i end up in this shit. Was it due to pure leadership qualities or was it just down to the fact that i am juz pure unlucky to be choosen for this stupid course. Yes the lure of commandership, the lure of the glory that awaits but how much u hafta sacrifice tt’s another issue. I cant think of anymore shit… i juz wanna get this over and done with man. I wanna get my freaking berret, and probably downgrade haha… probably i can live with a cpl salary of 550.

Yeah its christmas alrite… a season to be jolly. wanted to send her a christmas card and prezzie bought her gift budden… sigh… dunnoe how to give also. Maybe might juz get one parcel and send it over probably will ask her for her address lar. i can tell the whole world i miss her a lot wanna see her and i dunnoe dine with her? but i noe its wrong its reallie wrong to  the core and wot’s more probably i dunnoe wot’s gg thro her mind now. how i wish someone could give me an answer an advice on how to get over haha. Yes i keep myself bz braving the stupid trainings everyday budden i cant deny i still have her on my mind… i’ll like to convince myself a thousand and one reason why i should get her out of my mind but i juz cant find one good reason to get her out of my heart. Hopefully she is having a wonderful christmas rite now actually i realli wished to hear from her this christmas beit a call or a msg but neither came so yeap probably tt would have been my best christmas gift this yr but yeah like they always say in SAF… life is always unfair.